I’ve been wanting to write about this for a while. It is sort of hard for me to put into words the way I felt in the moment that I realized that I had found my calling from God in this world, at least my calling for this point in my life. I have been through a lot in my life to say the least and as many of you know I was a teen mom during an unplanned pregnancy. I had support from my family, which was good, but I always felt judged by others. I felt judged by everyone I went to school with. I felt judged by the people who I had once called my friends. The one that hurt the most though was feeling judged and unwelcome when I would walk into the church that I had previously regularly attended. Yes, I had made mistakes. I was embarrassed. I knew that I had done things that I shouldn’t have. During this time when I was so excited to have my son and when I should have been able to gloat to everyone that I was having a baby I was being made to feel like I should hide it and feel ashamed of myself. Whether I knew it at the time or not, God had a plan for me. He would go on to use this to help others.
I have now found an amazing program at my church just for helping ladies who are going through unplanned pregnancies. I get to treat ladies the way that I wish I had been treated when I was 17 and pregnant. I get to make sure they never feel as alone as I once felt. I get to love on some sweet babies and I have been shown more of Christ’s love in this group of women than I could have ever imagined. I broke down in tears when I realized the way God was using me. He deserves all of the glory and it is hard to believe that the same power that rose Jesus from the grave is there inside of me.
If you know someone of any age going through an unplanned pregnancy, be kind. I promise you that they have already been harder on themselves than they deserve. Don’t make them feel bad. If you are a Christian, show them Christ’s love. Show them how much of a blessing a sweet baby is. Show them that they won’t be judged by you for their circumstance.
Me at 18 years old with my oldest son, Gavin. I am so thankful for this boy.
I hope that this post helps you to keep the sanity in your life.